Tuesday, July 12, 2011

10 Tuesdays of Me! - 6 Places

I'm going to do 2 lists for this.  6 Places that I loved having been at and 6 places I hope to go one day.

6 Places I loved being:
  1. In the hospital when I first held both my girls.  Those two moments were two of the best of my life.
  2. In the car with Mikey when we went on our vacation to South Dakota five years ago.  South Dakota was nice, but I think the fun of going with him was probably the best part of that.  The Badlands are pretty awesome though.
  3. In my Great Aunt Phyl's house.  I loved that house.  I have great memories of being there when I would walk the mile over from my Grandma's and I have great memories of being there when I lived there with my parents.  Sometimes I'm sad that they don't still live there.
  4. On the basketball court in high school.  I wasn't really all that good at basketball, but there was something about being out there and playing that I still have dreams about.  Now the locker room being yelled at by coaches and teammates...that's a different story...
  5. In my classroom when a student gets excited about something we are studying.  I'm a dork who loves all the stuff I teach and I get pretty excited when a kid shows some enthusiasm.
  6. My bed.  I love sleeping.  I particularly love when all 4 of take a nap on weekend afternoons in it.  That's pretty close to heaven for me.
6 places I hope to get to someday
  1. Yellowstone - we are actually sort of planning a trip next June with my parents to celebrate Mikey and I's 5th year wedding anniversary and my parent's 40th ann.   (I know we are soooo romantic - traveling with my parents for our ann.)
  2. Alaska 
  3. New York City
  4. Washington DC - I went in high school for a week, but I'd love to go back now and see all the history.  I could spends weeks in the Smithsonian I think.
  5. The East Coast - I love to take a trip where I visit major battle sites of the Revolutionary and Civil War.
  6. Europe - I went last summer with my aunt and her son's school group to England, Spain and Italy, but I would love to go again with Mikey and my girls (and probably my parents because I like their company).  Sweden in particular.  My brother-in-law is from Sweden and I think it'd be neat to see his home in person.

Friday, July 8, 2011

FNL - Some Roo Quotes and More

  • We are headed out to camp in about 45 minutes.  I've gotten nothing ready, yet here I am blogging.  I'm having a little trouble getting excited about camping in this heat, but oh well.  I'm thinking we will be spending the afternoon in the camper, which is not my favorite part of camping.
  • Only about a month left before school starts.  In a couple of weeks I'll be excited again, because I really do enjoy my job.  Today I'm a little sad about that because I'm going to miss spending my days with my little ladies.
  • My sister is in Sweden for 3 1/2 weeks visiting her in-laws with her family.  It's crazy how I've talked to her more on Skype while she's been gone than I probably would have if she was here.  Her in-laws don't speak English too well so I think she starved for someone to chat with.    The funniest thing she said was how one of her daughters had said her favorite part of the trip so far was watching the cows.  Apparently the cows in here in Nebraska are not as exciting?
  • Mikey read my post about my 7 wants and said I sounded like a weirdo.  He said I should tell people I'm not a weirdo.  So here you go, "I'm not a weirdo."  I said that only a weirdo would say I'm not a weirdo, but he said I should let people know.  It was a funny conversation. 

To end my leftovers, I thought I'd post some pictures of Roo with some quotes from her - so here you go:

After locking me out when I took out the trash (which I didn't know she could do) - I'm omitting what I said so no one thinks I'm a terrible parent.
ROO: Why are you locked out?
ROO: Can you just come in this window?
ROO: Are you sure you aren't a stranger?

ME:  I'm going to hop in the shower quick, k?
ROO:  Mommy you need to just stand in the shower.  You told me I can't hop in there remember?

And a couple pics of Pj just because.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

10 Tuesdays of Me! - 7 Wants

I haven't put too much thought into these, so just doing them off the top of my head here.

  1. I want an iPad.  The school should have ordered one for me.  I still sorta want my own though.
  2. I want to lose about 150 lbs so that I look like a runway model and blow over in big wind storms.  I had jaw surgery about 5 years ago and after a 2 hour surgery that took 5 hours to complete, the surgeon said, "you literally have the thickest, densest bones I have ever sawed through." I would like that on some type of plaque.  My point is that I be almost literally skin and bone if I lost that much weight - thick, dense bone at that and probably some loose saggy skin.  You know, so I'd be one of those rare people that people would say, "wow, she looked better fat."  ((I seriously do want to lose some weight, but what I want MORE is for people to get off my back about it.  **Read people as my MIL and one of my friends who'd like me to buy 'shakes' from her.))
  3. I want my house to be cleaned, magically, when I get up in the morning, and every morning from here on. By "clean" I also mean organized.
  4. I want to win a new SUV, because I don't want to have a payment.  We don't have the most family friendly vehicles (2 door Cavalier and 4 door Tundra pickup).  People always watch us unload out of the Cav like we are clowns piling out of a clown car.  I do not want a van and will not enter contests that only allow winning of vans.
  5. I want to continue teaching, but not have to do any part of the job I deem unnecessary to student-learning and not have people crab at me about it.  This would include any type of "report" that I currently just change the year on the one from last year each year instead of actually doing.
  6. I want my girls to continue being the happy, healthy, easy-going, sweet, low-maintenance girls they are.
  7. I want the national debt to magically disappear so programs don't have to be cut and taxes don't have to rise.  (little somethin' for everyone there :) )
I wonder what my "wants" say about me.

Friday, July 1, 2011

FNL - The Questions

  • Why is that when I ask Roo to take 2 more bites of something she'll generally finish it?  Why doesn't she just finish it? 
  • Why does Roo think that all milk must be flavored with chocolate or strawberry?  Curses to the husband who gave her chocolate milk to begin with!
  •  Who are daytime television advertisers targeting?  Apparently people at home during the day hope to sue someone?
  • Why do people assume that because I don't have to go to "work" during the summer that I have "nothing to do all day?"  Really people?  Taking care of my of girls is something!!!
  • Why is John Goodman the voice of a chicken on the Direct TV ad?  Aren't all chickens female?
  • Why does low carb beer exist?  If you are drinking enough beer that you feel it is having a negative impact on your low carb diet, I would contend that it is not a diet issue you have, but a drinking problem.  (No offense to the Michelob Ultra drinkers in the blogosphere - just a thought.)
  • Why is Michelob in the spell check?  And Budwieser? And Heineken?  (How easily entertained am I that spell check does it for me?)
  • Why did we buy a house with basically no back yard? 
  • Why does the local news anchor leaving make me tear up? Am I that attached to news anchors?
And the final question...
  • Who dresses this Roo?  Does she think it's Country Christmas in July around here?

Head over to Danifred's and check out more Friday Night Leftovers.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

I'm a horrible person

Just ask my mother-in-law.  I mean, I would have thought that'd be pretty obvious to you from reading this blog, but just in case you didn't know already, I thought I'd let you in on it.

Mikey and I started dating as seniors in high school.  At first I think his mom was happy that he had me because he had been pretty depressed to the point he had tried to get them to let him drop out of school - not because of academic issues.  I think as time went on she realized that I was not AT ALL what she would want in a daughter-in-law.  Why?  How 'bout a bulleted list of reasons for you:
  • I was, in her eyes, a wild-child in high school.  It was ridiculous to her that I went out for sports, played in the band, participated in speech and drama.  Crazy that my parents let me stay out past 9 on school nights (usually because I was still practicing something) and past 10 on weekends.  I never drank in high school, but since I went to Rated R movies, drove on the interstate, and went shopping by myself, in her eyes I could not be trusted.
  • I went to college, while she would not let her daughter, 20 at the time, walk around Wal-mart by herself.  (I'm from central Nebraska by the way...not a high crime place.)  
  • Then I got a job (crazy me) and even earned my Master's degree (waste of money in her opinion).  
  • I listen to whatever I want to on the radio.  Even, prepare to gasp, NPR (seriously...N-P-R - she didn't know if Wait! Wait! Don't tell me! was appropriate).  Mikey still only programmed country stations into his car radio when we got married.  He'd turn it to the station he really wanted to listen to and then every time he got out of the car he'd switch it back to country (not Christian or something, country) - every time.  He once forgot in high school and his mom grounded him, told him how disappointed she was in him and even asked if he was using drugs (over a radio station).  Even today if we go somewhere and take his mom he will only listen to the country stations.
  • She hates that I work (I know been over that one) and even said when my Roo was a baby that "since I worked" and "didn't want her" she'd "take her home."  Not like I'm a stripper, I teach high school for goodness sakes.
  • I use a dishwasher.  According to her they don't get dishes clean.  (After hearing this comment probably 25+ times I said, "They get cleaner than if I don't use the dishwasher - cuz they wouldn't get washed at all.")
  • We spend waaaay to much $.  She just doesn't understand how we can do it on Mikey's salary.  Apparently the fact that I get paid to teach is lost on her (and paid more than Mikey is doubly lost).
There are just waaaaaayyy too many to continue.  

There are plenty of reasons why could I dislike her.  I wasn't allowed in her house because it was "too messy" for the past decade being one. Mikey and I watched an episode of Hoarders once and he commented that his mom could be on the show (although I don't think she can be that bad - but then, I haven't been in to see it).

Another being how she makes a comment every time we see her about my size, it used to be that she didn't understand how someone as "cute and little" as her daughter couldn't find a husband while all these "big girls" get married and now how she hopes my girls stay "cute and little like their aunt."  (I actually failed to hold my tongue on this one this weekend.  When she said that I said, "Yeah, we've been feeding them lots of aspartame in hopes their growth will be stunted." She actually replied with "Oh good.")

I've worked really hard to try to be nice, even at times, going above and beyond, but still, just ask her - I'm a horrible person.  In fact you don't have to ask her, she'll tell ya.  Sure she'll do it in a passive-aggressive way, but she'll tell ya.  She'll tell you how I don't let her see my girls and I won't be there to explain how she doesn't come to our house and how we aren't allowed in hers so it's kind of hard to let her see my children.  She'll tell you how I don't care about my girls because I (gasp) work.  She'll tell you how I'm not a good wife, because I don't bow to my husband (yes we actually discuss things and make decisions together - foreign concept to her).

What she also won't tell you is that the weekend before my Pj was born she sent me a nasty text message because she had gotten into it with Mikey after he stood up for himself when she berated him about not getting to see her granddaughters.  She won't tell you that even when Mikey called her repeatedly that weekend to smooth things over, she wouldn't budge.  She won't tell you how Mikey and I argued that weekend over what to do, why she doesn't like me, how we should move to Alaska to get away from her (yes - literally move to Alaska).  She doesn't know, so she can't tell you, how I didn't sleep much that weekend, how upset I was and how I went into early labor.   That all of this happened.  She will also not tell you how she showed up at the hospital and acted like nothing happened and has continued to act like that since then.

While I know that I shouldn't blame her for probably not being able to have more kids, part of me does and probably always will.

When I first started this blog I had a similar post and I had a couple of commentors say things like "hope she doesn't read this" and encouraging me to take it down - which I did.  I actually, in my own passive-aggressive way, hope she does read this.  I hope she can read this and see just how "horrible" I am.  I'm just so tired of being around her and trying so hard to be nice and make her happy and then having her turn around and talk crap about me and make little digs to me.

See the thing is, I'm proud of who I am.  I'm a good mother, wife and teacher.  I take care of people around me and don't only think of myself.  I take responsibility for my life and don't blame everything that goes wrong for me on others. 

At the end of the day I'll take all of that over being a good daughter-in-law in her eyes.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

10 Tuesdays of Me - 8 Fears

Today is my 8 fears.  I'm not sure I have 8 so I'll see what I can do...

  1. I fear anything bad happening to my children. 
  2. I fear that something is wrong with Pj fairly often and that we will realize it or figure it out when it is too late to actually help her.
  3. I fear that my girls will care when they get picked on in school.  I guess I kinda see being teased as inevitable.  I didn't really care when I got teased in school for the most part (I don't know if that is due to self-esteem or introversion), but I did have a few people who were pretty horrible to me.  I just hope my girls don't care and can avoid people like that.
  4. I fear that something will happen to Mikey (generally this is a car accident) and I will be alone with the girls.
  5. I also fear that Mikey's mom will finally convince him that I'm a horrible person and he will leave me. :(  While I know this one won't happen, it's still a worry and something I dream (or should I say nightmare) about occasionally.
  6. I fear losing my parents - hard to deal with them getting older (not that 60 is anywhere near old)
  7. I fear my sister - she is a great person, but I also tend to fear pissing her off and often walk on egg shells and go out of my way to make her happy.  Unfortunately sometimes all my work to make her happy blows up in my face.
  8. And a trivial one...I'm afraid of heights.  Ridiculous for a person of my height (6'), but I am for some odd reason.  Even standing on a chair can make me dizzy.